Things that make you go hm mm.

So tomorrow is another day with another interview at another school. This internship interview process has been tedious at best. For the most part people have been very nice to me, well in a sort of patronizing way.

If I hear one more school administrator tell me that they think I would be an excellent choice for this position, but… I am going to scream! The "but" part is always followed by, "we are looking for a long term solution," "we are looking for someone who can contribute in other ways to our school," "we are looking for someone who will energize this department," etc.

It doesn’t take much for me to read between those lines. “Long term solution” means someone who is much younger who has a long career ahead of them in teaching. I find that a bit ironic when an internship is a one year commitment that the schools are using every year to save money.

“Can contribute in other ways” is code for we really want a coach or dance teacher. Got me there, my days of twirling around in a leotard are certainly behind me.

“We need someone who will energize this department” clearly another reference to my age…OUCH…that one hurts the most! Silly me, my gut instincts told me before I started this process that I would be a logical choice. I have lived in this community for 20 years and have limited distractions at home. (Well there is actually one, but more on that later). My family is raised, so I won’t be taking maternity leave. My husband has had the same job in this community for 15 years, we own our home,I am not going anywhere! Funny, I thought I was a long term solution.

As for my age…nothing I can do about that. I may be an older candidate but it is not like I am applying to be a gym teacher. The fact is I have missed only 2 days of school in the last 4 years. I have a 3.70 GPA and have never once turned in a late assignment. Am I crazy? I want to teach history, you would thinks someone who actually lived a little bit of history would have something to contribute.

Meanwhile I continue to attend half filled classes, take notes and wonder just a bit why the kids that are sleeping in and taking road trips manage to still pass their classes and are getting all the teaching jobs. Crazy me, I thought this was how it was supposed to go down. You work hard in college and hm mm…maybe not so much. So tomorrows another day, another interview, but…